Friday, February 13, 2004
havent blogged in lyk a million yrs. hahaz.. lotsa things happened n i suppose the biggest event's dat me n him broke up. haf been thinking abt it for a long time, wondering if it was all worth it since he's the 1 i lyk most. almost every1 told me it's better for me to break, but i cldnt decide. in the end, i let him make the decision n it was to break up.
seriously, it's been 4days n i feel totally fine. in fact, i actually feel q gd abt it. expected to b q sad n stuffs, but i realise dat i'm not. yinchong said mayb it's cos i dun really love him dat much but i dun think dat's the case. i think i dun feel sad cos even though i lyk him alot, i noe dat he's not wad i wan for a bf, so break up le ke neng hui bi jiao hao :)
i told ben last dec dat if we break up again, i wun wan to patch. i dunno how he's feeling abt it now, but even if he asks me to patch, i'd just gif him a straight "no" w/o any hesitation. derwin was damn farny when i told him abt it. can still rem his expression n his incredulous "huh." hahaz.. vday's tmr but i dun really feel much abt it. wld'v loved to spend it with him but it's not meant to b so it's okay. if any1's feeling the loss, it's not me. haha.. bleahs
random thoughts at 7:02:00 AM
